I'll Always Be His Baby Girl...

Wow... fathers day is coming and so far it's been a hard one for me.
I think it's mainly because I'm going through some issues that I could really use his advice on what to do. Plus I know for a fact he'd be standing behind me giving me the courage to do what I have to do, I'd have his support all the way.
But since I can't get it I feel lost and really have no idea what to do.
I hate going anywhere this time of year, I feel like everything I see that says  "Dad" or  "Father" is like taunting me. Reminding me over and over that I don't have him here anymore. I hate that feeling of a big hole in my heart, like a hole I don't know if I'll ever be able to fill.

I had a bad dream the other night about going to his grave and finding him there half buried.
And then I had a dream last night hugging him and not letting go. Both felt so real.... I never have dreams like this, it not only confusing me but makes matters so much worse.


I thought that maybe if I wrote about this it would help, we'll see.

If you read, this I would really appreciate a lot of prayer this weekend.

Thanks,
Brooke

Realization....

Yes... I've come to the realization that I have not posted a new blog post in quite awhile now!
What's wrong with me?!
Oh ha... I know. It's probably because nothing super exciting has happened, at least not exciting enough to post about. :-/
But I'm doing well, life is keeping me smiling for the most part. Been having some fun times with friends, pretty sure my friends are some of the best in town ;-) Recently we've had some birthday parties and now that it's getting warm we are going to be doing more outside things. Such as... Volleyball every tuesday night! Oh yeah, you heard me, Volleyball. By the end of this summer I'm going to be PRO! I know it.

Oh and did you hear I went to California? I can't believe I didn't post about that! It was even exciting too, ugh! I'm just not good at this blogging thing. I need to find a way to get better, it's a great thing... I just am not dedicated enough to keep it up!

I'm going to start working on reading my Bible a lot more, so maybe that will give me something to blog about? Ya think? I sure hope so. :)

Anyway, back to California.... it was so much fun! I loved it and I totally want to go back! We first went to Redlands CA. where we stayed at my friends house. Then we went to Huntington Beach to hang out in and around the beach! Then we headed off to LA the day after that, so fun. Hung out in Beverly Hills and Hollywood. It's lagit! :)


So yeah! Cool beans huh!? :)

Guess I'm going to head out, hope all is well and I hope everyone likes my new Blog look :) Thought it was kinda cute!

Buh-byes!
Brookie