Okay, so here's the deal... I've been a bit down lately.
I can't quite figure out how to deal with it. I don't want people to feel bad for me, I just need some prayer.
I'll explain, this year started out alright, but what I didn't realize was it would all go down hill from there. The church group that I've attended for the past two years has pretty much disintegrated, the people I once knew as a big happy family have dispersed and the once called meeting place is no longer the hub. Problem is it all happened so fast that I feel like I'm so lost. I'm at a point where I feel like everyone is too busy, and I'm here alone with my stupid thoughts that taunt me all the time. I haven't had to deal with these crazy thoughts since before Dad passed.... mostly because I've had people/friends to keep my mind off of it.
I know things and people change... I guess I just don't deal with change all that well.
I would do anything for my friends, I've spent so much of the past 2 or 3 years making sure they have a friend to lean on and THANK GOD I've had friends to lean on the past 3 years because I know I would not be the person I am today without them holding me up.
I'm fighting the thoughts in my head because I know their not true... but they continue to taunt me trying to make me believe that I've done something wrong, or that people have moved on without me.
God my prayer tonight is that you will give me peace, that these thoughts would leave my mind, that you will fill me with your presence! Amen
-Brooke
p.s. I hope that no one takes offense to anything they read or read into here. I'm only voiceing how I feel and I know it's just me and my mind.
I just need to find myself again...
Sunday, October 7, 2012
Thursday, July 12, 2012
I returned!
HI!
District Indoor Camp Meeting started tonight! The message was about the "Real World" and how God just wants us, not what we can accomplish or be good at he wants the core of who we are!
Joshua 24:13-18
YES! I think we try way to hard to make it seem like we live the perfect life, that's not what God is looking for... otherwise we would have made us perfectly.
Oh man I love this stuff!
Well, I'll let you know what tomorrow night is about!
See ya!
Brookie
District Indoor Camp Meeting started tonight! The message was about the "Real World" and how God just wants us, not what we can accomplish or be good at he wants the core of who we are!
Joshua 24:13-18
YES! I think we try way to hard to make it seem like we live the perfect life, that's not what God is looking for... otherwise we would have made us perfectly.
Oh man I love this stuff!
Well, I'll let you know what tomorrow night is about!
See ya!
Brookie
Tuesday, July 10, 2012
Man... I'm a slacker!
Well Hi,
I know I haven't posted on here in forever, I think it's about time I say Hello again!
It's been an eventful year so far! Life is full of drama and many changes. Some I'm not quite sure what to think and others that make me excited for the future. God never said it would be easy, and I'm realizing the older I get the more true that statement is.
I've been working at the Nampa Rec Center for a around 7 months now and I'm loving it. It's really giving me confidence in myself, I'm finding that to be very helpful for sure!
I've also been working for Valley Shepherd Church of the Nazarene for over a Year now and have grown to really love the people there, they're like family to me I love Celebrate Recovery!
My latest decision I've made is to move back in with my Mama, she just bought a house and is moving back to Nampa. For 3 years now I've been out on my own so it will be a huge change to move back, but I'm trusting in God that it will be good for the both of us!
OH! Last thursday I led the Young Adults Bible Study group due to our leaders being out of the country and I had a great time! I was sort of stressing out before hand, but it turned out to be great and I was so thankful that everyone supported me and helped me make it a great night! YAY God is so good! :)
Well, I'm watching 21 Jump St. with Nathan, His Bro, & Kristian so I guess I should probably go.
Just wanted to update ya'll.
Thanks!
Luv Luv
Brookie
I know I haven't posted on here in forever, I think it's about time I say Hello again!
It's been an eventful year so far! Life is full of drama and many changes. Some I'm not quite sure what to think and others that make me excited for the future. God never said it would be easy, and I'm realizing the older I get the more true that statement is.
I've been working at the Nampa Rec Center for a around 7 months now and I'm loving it. It's really giving me confidence in myself, I'm finding that to be very helpful for sure!
I've also been working for Valley Shepherd Church of the Nazarene for over a Year now and have grown to really love the people there, they're like family to me I love Celebrate Recovery!
My latest decision I've made is to move back in with my Mama, she just bought a house and is moving back to Nampa. For 3 years now I've been out on my own so it will be a huge change to move back, but I'm trusting in God that it will be good for the both of us!
OH! Last thursday I led the Young Adults Bible Study group due to our leaders being out of the country and I had a great time! I was sort of stressing out before hand, but it turned out to be great and I was so thankful that everyone supported me and helped me make it a great night! YAY God is so good! :)
Well, I'm watching 21 Jump St. with Nathan, His Bro, & Kristian so I guess I should probably go.
Just wanted to update ya'll.
Thanks!
Luv Luv
Brookie
Thursday, November 24, 2011
Thanksgiving 2011
Yep it's here! And I have SO much to be Thankful for.
I truly can't express how blessed I am. God has placed so many amazing people in my life year after year. I have so many highlights I can look back on and smile at just because of those people!
Thank you Thank you Thank you!
I wouldn't be the person I am today if I didn't know Jesus Christ as my personal Savior, because therefore I wouldn't have the amazing life that I have today!
I wouldn't be the person I am today if I didn't know Jesus Christ as my personal Savior, because therefore I wouldn't have the amazing life that I have today!
God Bless you all on this 2011 Thanksgiving, let the next year giving you even more things to be thankful for!
Love, Always
Brookie
Wednesday, September 28, 2011
Leadership Essentials! #1
Aight.... so here's the dealio. This morning was morning 1 of 12 leadership essential "meeting's".
Some young adults from the NFCYA group at Nampa First are taking this inductive study to grow some knowledge on being leaders. Cool huh?! Oh yeah. Thing is this study is at 6a.m on wednesdays. ha-ha Makes getting up for it a little difficult!
Anyway, this morning was great! We had some super duper fun/interesting discussions!
I thought I'd make a blog post every wednesday stating what I got from the session.
Session 1: Holy
What does it mean to me to be holy?: Well, when I think of the word holy the term "being set apart" comes to mind. What does this mean to me? I think that being set apart is knowing the call God has for you and making that call a reality in your life as well as being set apart from everyone else giving your entire being to God. This is very hard for many people to do; i myself have yet to master it and probably never will but I can work towards it! Many people stumble here. Thankfully we don't have to be 'Holy' to be a child of God! But we should work towards that goal! :)
Our Memory Verse was 1 Peter 1:14-19 - What I got from this passage was that we can so easily become apart of the world. We have to guard ourselves so that we do not conform to the evil desires that can at times overwhelm us. "Be not of this world, but of God as his child."
Our bible study portion was on Isaiah 6:1-8 - This passage is one that has always stood out to me. I always seem to get something new out of it when I read it. Something that stood out to me here was the conviction that Isaiah experienced upon encountering God. He was then cleansed of his sin and equipped with what he needed to tell the people about God! Awesome! Many of us don't feel equipped to be 'leaders' I know I don't. Also many of us don't feel like we can be 'leaders'. I feel like everyone leads in some way.
"Christian leadership, then is a daily and deliberate choice to pursue a path that will be very painful at times, but it also will have enormous influence on others." - I love that! Through the pain there is blessings!
It got more out of it of course, but these are some things that really stood out to me.
:) Thanks for reading! Hope you comment, I'd love to hear from you!
-Brookie
Some young adults from the NFCYA group at Nampa First are taking this inductive study to grow some knowledge on being leaders. Cool huh?! Oh yeah. Thing is this study is at 6a.m on wednesdays. ha-ha Makes getting up for it a little difficult!
Anyway, this morning was great! We had some super duper fun/interesting discussions!
I thought I'd make a blog post every wednesday stating what I got from the session.
Session 1: Holy
What does it mean to me to be holy?: Well, when I think of the word holy the term "being set apart" comes to mind. What does this mean to me? I think that being set apart is knowing the call God has for you and making that call a reality in your life as well as being set apart from everyone else giving your entire being to God. This is very hard for many people to do; i myself have yet to master it and probably never will but I can work towards it! Many people stumble here. Thankfully we don't have to be 'Holy' to be a child of God! But we should work towards that goal! :)
Our Memory Verse was 1 Peter 1:14-19 - What I got from this passage was that we can so easily become apart of the world. We have to guard ourselves so that we do not conform to the evil desires that can at times overwhelm us. "Be not of this world, but of God as his child."
Our bible study portion was on Isaiah 6:1-8 - This passage is one that has always stood out to me. I always seem to get something new out of it when I read it. Something that stood out to me here was the conviction that Isaiah experienced upon encountering God. He was then cleansed of his sin and equipped with what he needed to tell the people about God! Awesome! Many of us don't feel equipped to be 'leaders' I know I don't. Also many of us don't feel like we can be 'leaders'. I feel like everyone leads in some way.
"Christian leadership, then is a daily and deliberate choice to pursue a path that will be very painful at times, but it also will have enormous influence on others." - I love that! Through the pain there is blessings!
It got more out of it of course, but these are some things that really stood out to me.
:) Thanks for reading! Hope you comment, I'd love to hear from you!
-Brookie
Monday, September 26, 2011
My Sept of 2011!
I don't even know where to begin...
This month has been so full of frustrations with a small amount of happiness here and there.
I've tried to forget most of it ha, and I'm thankful it's almost over!
At the end of August I made the final decision to move out of where I was living in a Duplex with my roommate, to a small studio house by myself. I have to be honest I was freaking out in the beginning.... I didn't know how I was going to do it living alone. Not that I'm scared for my safety... I just HATE being alone. ha. It's like a big phobia for me...
But... with a lot of prayer and talking to people, God started to prepare me to live alone. He would slowly make apparent the things that bothered me and how they would be different once I moved. I love that about God... I love that if you don't feel comfortable with his plan in the beginning he smooths it over and eventually it's all you can think about! :) Now I'm officially moved into my new place a month later and loving it! It's small, but I'm able to make it cute and cozy. We'll see how it goes having people over (one at a time) haha!
I must add that even though this month has been hard, I've been able to find the little blessings God has so strategically placed in my life. One being the support of my friends which is huge to me. They've all been there to talk to and support me. Thank you! Two being my family, especially my Mom she's been there for me the whole way and also has giving me huge support. God has places some awesome people in my life and I feel so blessed that their there! Love you ALL!
I better go run my errands now. Have a great day!
-Brookie
This month has been so full of frustrations with a small amount of happiness here and there.
I've tried to forget most of it ha, and I'm thankful it's almost over!
At the end of August I made the final decision to move out of where I was living in a Duplex with my roommate, to a small studio house by myself. I have to be honest I was freaking out in the beginning.... I didn't know how I was going to do it living alone. Not that I'm scared for my safety... I just HATE being alone. ha. It's like a big phobia for me...
But... with a lot of prayer and talking to people, God started to prepare me to live alone. He would slowly make apparent the things that bothered me and how they would be different once I moved. I love that about God... I love that if you don't feel comfortable with his plan in the beginning he smooths it over and eventually it's all you can think about! :) Now I'm officially moved into my new place a month later and loving it! It's small, but I'm able to make it cute and cozy. We'll see how it goes having people over (one at a time) haha!
I must add that even though this month has been hard, I've been able to find the little blessings God has so strategically placed in my life. One being the support of my friends which is huge to me. They've all been there to talk to and support me. Thank you! Two being my family, especially my Mom she's been there for me the whole way and also has giving me huge support. God has places some awesome people in my life and I feel so blessed that their there! Love you ALL!
I better go run my errands now. Have a great day!
-Brookie
Thursday, August 4, 2011
Not often...
Do I have something good to post about, but when I do. I... POST! hehe
Here it is!
...ready?
You sure?....
OKAY.
I. Brooke. Murphy. FinallysawSoulSurfer!!!!! AHHH! hehe. (sorry drinking mountain dew as we speak)
Yes. I was so excited, it seems like I've waited SO long so see this movie! Well I kinda have waited a long time. I absolutely loved it!!
Bethany Hamilton is now most definitely a hero of mine. Her courage and faith really opened my eyes.
I'd never heard her story, nor had I ever really been interested in finding it out.
But I'd heard such amazing things about the movie I HAD to see it.
As I watched the movie my favorite Matthew West song "Strong Enough" kept popping up in my head.
Even through some of the hardest most scariest times God is strong even when we are not. He has the power to bring us through it, not alone but through him all things are possible!
I'm so blessed to have such awesome people who have helped keep me strong through one of the hardest times of my life. I know that when I'm having a hard time I can call on those people that God placed in my life to help keep me on the right track. I still struggle with the loss of my Dad, and that's okay. :) It's not an easy road, but because of what I've been through I am able so share the peace God has shown and given me.
*Smiles* I love my God!
Good night!
Brook!e
Here it is!
...ready?
You sure?....
OKAY.
I. Brooke. Murphy. FinallysawSoulSurfer!!!!! AHHH! hehe. (sorry drinking mountain dew as we speak)
Yes. I was so excited, it seems like I've waited SO long so see this movie! Well I kinda have waited a long time. I absolutely loved it!!
Bethany Hamilton is now most definitely a hero of mine. Her courage and faith really opened my eyes.
I'd never heard her story, nor had I ever really been interested in finding it out.
But I'd heard such amazing things about the movie I HAD to see it.
As I watched the movie my favorite Matthew West song "Strong Enough" kept popping up in my head.
Even through some of the hardest most scariest times God is strong even when we are not. He has the power to bring us through it, not alone but through him all things are possible!
I'm so blessed to have such awesome people who have helped keep me strong through one of the hardest times of my life. I know that when I'm having a hard time I can call on those people that God placed in my life to help keep me on the right track. I still struggle with the loss of my Dad, and that's okay. :) It's not an easy road, but because of what I've been through I am able so share the peace God has shown and given me.
*Smiles* I love my God!
Good night!
Brook!e
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