Wow... fathers day is coming and so far it's been a hard one for me.
I think it's mainly because I'm going through some issues that I could really use his advice on what to do. Plus I know for a fact he'd be standing behind me giving me the courage to do what I have to do, I'd have his support all the way.
But since I can't get it I feel lost and really have no idea what to do.
I hate going anywhere this time of year, I feel like everything I see that says "Dad" or "Father" is like taunting me. Reminding me over and over that I don't have him here anymore. I hate that feeling of a big hole in my heart, like a hole I don't know if I'll ever be able to fill.
I had a bad dream the other night about going to his grave and finding him there half buried.
And then I had a dream last night hugging him and not letting go. Both felt so real.... I never have dreams like this, it not only confusing me but makes matters so much worse.
I thought that maybe if I wrote about this it would help, we'll see.
If you read, this I would really appreciate a lot of prayer this weekend.
Thanks,
Brooke
Rest in your Heavenly Father - I know that is easier to say than to do! Reach for His support and trust Him to give you guidance for those rough spots. Don't let the devil win by trying to put things in front of you to discourage you. We are praying for you.
ReplyDeletePsa 115:11 Ye that fear the LORD, trust in the LORD: he is their help and their shield.
Prov.3:5& Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy path.